Driving along one afternoon, while listening to our Ipod on shuffle and gushing about a recent short lived holiday fling, it came to me in a form of a song.
Although the guy was sexy as hell and an intellectual genius, it wasn’t the man I was missing. It was the inspiration and that “feeling” he brought back into my life.
You know the feeling. The feeling that everything is right, just the way you are. The you, you have to sometimes conceal when conversating with just any average Joe, or the side of you, you have to water down, as to not offend or sound like you know way too much. Even the “dad jokes” you have to stop yourself from telling, flow freely to an appreciative audience, no judgment, no blank stares, no bullshit.
Finally, I had met someone whose sense of humour was on par with mine, and trust me, this is no easy feat. Along with that, he was extremely intellectual and has a similar upbringing to mine resulting in practically identical values.
The vacation ended, together with the fling, leaving me feeling so empty and wondering why something that felt so magical could end so abruptly.
We were recently reminded of how we always say “No two people ever meet by accident”. Everyone you come across in your lifetime has a lesson for you and vice versa, whether it be a small reminder or a big wake up call.
We thought about this, and we tried to understand what it was about this one particular man that made such a huge impact on me in such a short amount of time.
I wanted more of that feeling, of those conversations and the inspiration to be a better person, take more pride in the knowledge I had accumulated and also the thirst to gain more.
Then this song, by Billy Joel came on… hence the opening quote.
I had felt so uninspired before he came along, he brought back this fire and it continues to burn now that he’s out of the picture.
So here’s what we’ve learned:
It is not always that person you need, but the inspiration they bring to you. Our minds gain so much knowledge everyday, sometimes without realizing it. The earth keeps turning, sometimes moving people away and bringing new ones closer.
Don’t hold onto things too tight, don’t look back. Hold onto that feeling you had with that person. Take on board the lessons you’ve learned from them and look forward to feeling those feelings again with a new person and look forward to brand new lessons you will no doubt learn.
As for me, I would love to see him again. Thanks to him, that spark inside me has been reignited and the passion for life I once thought I lost has been found again. I don’t know if it will work out, but…
“I’ll take my chances, I forgot how nice romance is, I haven’t been there for the longest time…”
…Til next time…xx