Driving along one afternoon, while listening to our Ipod on shuffle and gushing about a recent short lived holiday fling, it came to me in a form of a song.
Although the guy was sexy as hell and an intellectual genius, it wasn’t the man I was missing. It was the inspiration and that “feeling” he brought back into my life.
You know the feeling. The feeling that everything is right, just the way you are. The you, you have to sometimes conceal when conversating with just any average Joe, or the side of you, you have to water down, as to not offend or sound like you know way too much. Even the “dad jokes” you have to stop yourself from telling, flow freely to an appreciative audience, no judgment, no blank stares, no bullshit.
Finally, I had met someone whose sense of humour was on par with mine, and trust me, this is no easy feat. Along with that, he was extremely intellectual and has a similar upbringing to mine resulting in practically identical values.
The vacation ended, together with the fling, leaving me feeling so empty and wondering why something that felt so magical could end so abruptly.
We were recently reminded of how we always say “No two people ever meet by accident”. Everyone you come across in your lifetime has a lesson for you and vice versa, whether it be a small reminder or a big wake up call.
We thought about this, and we tried to understand what it was about this one particular man that made such a huge impact on me in such a short amount of time.
I wanted more of that feeling, of those conversations and the inspiration to be a better person, take more pride in the knowledge I had accumulated and also the thirst to gain more.
Then this song, by Billy Joel came on… hence the opening quote.
I had felt so uninspired before he came along, he brought back this fire and it continues to burn now that he’s out of the picture.
So here’s what we’ve learned:
It is not always that person you need, but the inspiration they bring to you. Our minds gain so much knowledge everyday, sometimes without realizing it. The earth keeps turning, sometimes moving people away and bringing new ones closer.
Don’t hold onto things too tight, don’t look back. Hold onto that feeling you had with that person. Take on board the lessons you’ve learned from them and look forward to feeling those feelings again with a new person and look forward to brand new lessons you will no doubt learn.
As for me, I would love to see him again. Thanks to him, that spark inside me has been reignited and the passion for life I once thought I lost has been found again. I don’t know if it will work out, but…
“I’ll take my chances, I forgot how nice romance is, I haven’t been there for the longest time…”
…Til next time…xx
Sunday, 18 December 2011
Wednesday, 7 December 2011
The answer is NO.
This answer came to me in the form of a Facebook status comment. One girl on my friends list had posted: “to message or not to message?” to which a very wise friend of hers replied:
“A guy doesn’t “forget” he likes you. Put down the phone.”
Although it was not directed at me, it hit me like a frying pan to the face. I immediately put down my phone even though I wasn’t even texting at the time.
Stupid, stupid me, hours later, decided to ignore these words of wisdom and text him anyway. It was a simple “Hi, how are you” text.
I was preparing myself for the worst: no reply. Which was exactly what I got.
If he hasn’t even texted you by now, chances are he won’t again. He’s probably calling and texting his new “Flavor of the Month”, saying the same things said to sucker you in. You were not the first, and for now, you won’t be the last.
Do yourself a favor, keep your pride (and your heart) intact, and for goodness sake: put down that phone.
...til next time!